Stitches

Gradually
[Like I don't even notice]
I begin
[Without meaning to?]
Forgetting.
Just Letting
Everything
Go.
Which is good!
Or no?
Erased from
Lists of
Problems
But when
its back
Well then
I'll know what I lack
And it will not be good
no, not good
I brood on whether
This weather
will pass
and if
Anything ever will
Last.
or i think
chain links
will they ever meet?
I'm beat.
Which path?
Calm then emotional wrath?
Or constant heart
Ache ?
Constant Partly-Awake?