i sincerely fucking apologize for my behavior this morning

If you stay long enough you become stuffed animal
Wandering barefoot around unblinking
cotton
When i am gone
You numb arm
slave to my snuggles
I am limp and thick around your
Rag legs
plump with my love
a night routine;
The morning's,
forgetting i am used to you
making coffee
alone
filling my doorways with silent
silent webs
forgetting those too

Sure

I was so sure

That those were the free sunglasses from the pool at the hotel her family is staying at

That those were your delicate, careful fingers that were flicking them open

That that was your elbow that was bending at that distinctive angle, with that awkward tension, as though you were dragging it through water

That it was languidly lifting your phone to your face just to pass the time at the intersection

Just to pass the time until she was out of work

Just to pass the time in front of me

I was so sure that I hurried past again, slammed it behind me and flung open the door, breathing hard, went back down the elevator, and up, hurried past, breathing more, stared, not necessarily in that order

I know it was a stranger with thicker hands, bigger ears, lighter skin, darker hair, different shoes

I know it wasn’t you
But I’m still sure it was